If you do not know why i said sorry for..

Right after the lifeguard session, while we were having a phone conversation. I was in the mrt. And initially, when i heard that you wanted me to go and pick you up after your outing. I felt so abused. I know that it was my duly obligations to send you back home safely, no matter what. But for a moment, i really felt abused. It is like you are having fun outside, and after the much fun, here comes the chauffeur to pick you home. It didn't felt right for me. So i turned you down straightaway. And you felt offended... i'm sorry.

Second matter, when i say that you have to come and pester me until i die. Yes i admitted that i did say that. But, i really want to do what i want to do. I do not want to do something that will cause you to be sad. I never will. But by not being able to do something i want to do, i will feel tied down. I'm not saying the situation is until so serious that i'm feeling tied down. I'm just saying that if you limit my choices, due to the influence of your mood and feelings. I will feel bounded. Obviously, if i got time, i will definitely want to meet you. I know it's only a soccer session. I would not want to let a soccer session cause conflict between us. Because i know i'm suppose to make you happy, and not let you sad at any moment. So i will do what it's duly right for me to do. I will choose you over the soccer session. (Because back in the JC days, people who reads this blogs all knows that i will definitely choose the soccer session after school.) I'm willing to let go anything only for you to be happy. Don't emo in front of me again. I know that i will still put on that nice mood to let you vent on. But don't abused it ok? Spare a thought for your boy here ok? I'm not complaining.. just let me blabber all this out ok? I felt darn bad now... I do not know why i suffer from mood swings like you. Maybe it's because i've been with you for too long. Needless to say, there will be some influence of you on me. I did promised myself that i will never want to blog sad things on the blog. Cos it will just make it even worse. And i do not know why i'm doing it again now. Please don't feel angry or moody after this post.. cos it's nothing. It just a moment of thought from me. I do not want it to affect you.

Last post was 2045.

Just moments later.. at 2137.

This is really freaking! She like sort of know that i really wanted some understanding from her. And she agreed to my soccer session and what's even more crazy.. she's going to watch me play. What the hell! Obviously i'm over the sky about her understanding.. but i definitely wouldn't want her to see me play.. cos i'm really not that good. Haha! But nevertheless, it was a good ending. I felt great now! Gosh.. i'm a mood swinger.. literally. Hope she join me for dinner and movie at the later part of the day too. Haha!