i'm back!

Alright... it's time for me to tell you all more about what i've been through for these 6 weeks... It's gonna be 7th on the following monday! Haha... soon i'm going to pass out and go into the actual diver training. Life in the camp is as usual. But this time with more power-packed punishments, more stand by beds, more intensive PTs, more Hardcore SOCs and also more filthy field trainings. I don't understand, why the hammer was held on so long before it dropped on the previous week. it should have come earlier to give me some time to react. Now it's like so late and i've not trained up properly yet. I must say fitness wise, i'm in the lower-quartile range. Should be lah... cos but looking at those bods that those freaks have inside the camp, they should be much better off than me. They were smart to work doubly hard before they came into the camp. So that it will be a holiday for them. For me, i simply wasted all the free time to eat, drink and club throughout the days. Thinking that living a fun life is so so much better than controlling yourself and limiting yourself to just training and stringent diets. But nevertheless i accustomed to the lifestyle pretty easily. Just that without the pre-trainings, i'm left behind, far far away from the main batch. I must now work doubly hard to catch up with them. Don't want to be lousy and being left behind. I want to be on par with them. Maybe i should do more strength training at home. Should not slack at home and do nothing.

Whenever i'm inside the camp, i would yearn to come out. And as the weeks go pass each time, the tension become higher and higher. The Sacred Question "Will i be able to book out early like the previous weeks". More and more people are being confined back until saturdays. I really hope that i could remain untouched for the rest of my BMT phase. Being out of the camp, the feeling is better than anything else in the world. How i wished that sometimes, they allow you to take breaks here and there if you can give them what they want. But too bad...

Shall blog more later...