going thru physical phase now

physical phase for my vocation now will most likely kick in tomorrow. Always thought that i'm one of those at the lower quartile of the power curve. Will never be able to be one of the best. So too bad man. Maybe i will only excel in the dive phase. No one knows. But bet i'm gonna be lousy here and there lah. Training is always tough. All on the mental strength. It's always mental over body. So friends out there, just don't bother to ask about the training. It's always the same. The same kind of training that breaks down you physically then try to stimulate you to use your mental strength to overcome those further strenous training. It's always like those standard 50 diamonds, numerous flutter kicks (hundreds). They don't have any novelty at all. Maybe they wouldn't want to torture us with their new stuffs. But i seriously wouldn't want to try out at all. All this routine work is enough. Running in the training is also another barrier. Always been a lazy dude here, i only run if i start to lose my confidence in my body. Now i will have to run if i never run for two days consecutively. Or else i will start to realise my drop in stamina. How i really hope that i could get back to camp tomorrow to get on with all the PP(physical phase) shit. Complete them as soon as possible. All i wanted was to complete everything and get out of NS. Getting the diver badge is just one of the process, not a goal. The goal is to ORD as soon as possible. Never really been proud to be a diver, it's just a forced choice. I didn't know that the VA (vocational assignment) sent by Mindef is not a compulsory shit. Wasted my time there, and worse still got chosen to be a diver. But no doubt about diver transforming me, maturing my thoughts, my intelligence put to good use in how to chao keng and obviously facing my fears and completing all the evolutions (activities). No doubt about diver helping me to cut down the fats faster than california fitness could for all their members. Hahaha! But it still wouldn't stop me from thinking that NS is still full of shit. It's ok. It's alright. I shall go through this without hanging phrase like 'NS sucks' on my mouth. I really hope that in the end, i still could manage to find a place to study and continuing on to work, get marry as early as possible (keke), and then have kids, and tell them not to go to the schools that i been to, and also maybe tell my boys not to join divers and commandos. This two vocations for NS is full of fame and full of shit as well. Hahaha! That's all!